Day 119, April 7, 2009
For some reason, a refreshing feeling of assurance stayed with me through most of my classes today. Somehow I felt confident that everything was happening the way it was supposed to – that I didn’t have to do my usual fretting and fussing about how the lessons were going. I had a feeling of security, as if no words or behavior could possibly be out of place or imperil the peace of the classroom. I’m not sure where this feeling came from. (I’m never sure where ANY of my feelings come from.) Perhaps it arose because of some meditative reading I did this morning, or because of an especially nourishing breakfast, or because of the typically supportive spirit of my scholars, or simply because it was an hospitable, spring-like day. Wherever the feeling came from, it was much esteemed by this sometimes anxious and hesitant teacher.